Gus chuckles slightly under his breath and nods, it's a strange comparison - but he kind of gets it.
"My parents had all these dreams about me becoming a priest when I was a kid, and when that was shot down it was still assumed I'd be a deacon - or at least leader of the choir." He sighs and looks away; "I guess the turning point was high school - they started panicking that I was still spending all my time with Shawn instead of going out with girls and all that... and well, you've met Shawn... but it wasn't like that. It's never been like that. Still, they sent me to this conversion camp so I could 'pray the gay away'." He laughs bitterly.
"That's when I guess I realized that it wasn't really for me, because man... if I had been gay that would have crushed me. As it is, I still don't think I could forgive them for it. Since thing it's just gotten more and more difficult to have faith and believe in church doctrine - and I find myself wondering just how much of it is what God would want. I mean, I think God would want his people to be happy, right?"
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Date: 2012-07-28 06:15 pm (UTC)"My parents had all these dreams about me becoming a priest when I was a kid, and when that was shot down it was still assumed I'd be a deacon - or at least leader of the choir." He sighs and looks away; "I guess the turning point was high school - they started panicking that I was still spending all my time with Shawn instead of going out with girls and all that... and well, you've met Shawn... but it wasn't like that. It's never been like that. Still, they sent me to this conversion camp so I could 'pray the gay away'." He laughs bitterly.
"That's when I guess I realized that it wasn't really for me, because man... if I had been gay that would have crushed me. As it is, I still don't think I could forgive them for it. Since thing it's just gotten more and more difficult to have faith and believe in church doctrine - and I find myself wondering just how much of it is what God would want. I mean, I think God would want his people to be happy, right?"